Why Do I Struggle With Trust?

Why Do I Struggle With Trust?

Lately I have really been struggling with trusting in what the Lord has been saying.  Mostly because I’ve begun to notice all the times people have trusted in what they believed what the Lord has spoken to them and it hasn’t actually happened like they heard from the Lord.  It’s cynicism sneaking into my life.

I was really beginning to struggle with this and then my eyes were really opened when I read a blog from Hope, my squad-leader for the World Race.  Check it out here. She talks about being let down by God.  He promised her something in 2012 and the promise didn’t actually come to pass.  It’s kind of similar to what I’ve been reading over on OneThousandRisks.com about “failed words.”

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I’ve been living in this future world, seeing so much of what God has promised for me.  He’s given me words for my future and told me to be patient as He grows me in my intimacy with Him.  It’s a hard to balance your life in this unknown and something I’ve been learning about is enjoying the process, Sammie opened my eyes to that with her blog/vision.

You see, I believe 100% that God speaks to His children.  I believe 100% that all people hear from the Lord, I also know that there are other voices that get in the way; voices like my flesh, the world and the devil a sort of unholy trinity as John Eldredge calls it.

Then God blew me up with this verse:

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When the disciples saw Him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost!” And they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take courage, it is I; do not be afraid.”

Peter said to Him, “Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water.” And He said, “Come!” And Peter got out of the boat, and walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But seeing the wind, he became frightened, and beginning to sink, he cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and took hold of him, and said to him, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?” (Matthew 14:26-31 NASB)

The disciples thought Jesus was a ghost.  When you see Peter’s response he said, “Lord, if it is you.”  Peter couldn’t see Jesus; he only knew His voice.  It could have been a demon, luring Peter out to kill him in the storm.

What we see here is that, Peter knew Jesus’ voice.  Jesus was his friend and at a certain point in your relationship you know the voice of your friend.

That’s how it should be for all believers that have come to know God’s voice.  We should trust in it enough that we can step out on water in the midst of a storm.  Fully trusting that we are going to begin to walk on the water.

This is where my cynicism comes to play.  I have found myself looking into the past and not into the future.

I’m basing my future promises on my broken past.

I’ve been looking at all the times I have failed instead of trusting in the ways God has promised me I am going to succeed.  Trusting that He is going to challenge me, empower me and provide for me.  It’s not that I always look back but I have looked back.

You cannot base your future experiences on how things have failed in the past.  Thank you Bill Swan and Seth for speaking that into my life.

It’s a sin to not trust in what the Lord has spoken to you.

I’m not having faith if I’m second guessing what the Lord has spoken to me.  The Lord has been challenging me to enjoy the process that He is taking me into answering the promises He has given me.  He is also challenging me to have full trust that He is going to come through on these promises.

As Believers, we have to live with the mindset that what we hear is trickling down directly from the Father.  We must live our lives based upon that truth and when we find ourselves worried, anxious or unable to push forward we must rebuke the lies.

The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail. (Isaiah 58:11)

Fight for your future promises; don’t cave to your broken past.  You’ll come up empty and dry every time.

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